Message from RockafireGuy

[Shiney Happy Jenn]

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[RockafireGuy]

Nice to know somebody's living their dream..... :rolleyes
I know... I'm a whiner...........sometimes I feel like giving up and either joining the military or going to work at the chicken plant.. as that seems to be the only kind of work in my area.....

I'm sorry.. there was no reason for this whiney post..... it's just me blowing off frustration. Pay no attention to the loser behind the computer still living with his dear old Dad... LOL! :lol I feel like some Nerd shut in or something.... somebody sign me up for meals on wheels.....

Nobody has any idea.. well.. maybe a few people do.... just how much of a dedicated fan I've always been and actually how long I really have been around here.... longer than.. well...everybody really..... I just didn't join the community for a few years. I was around when Nick's site was the only site.
1997 or 1998 would be a good estimate as to when I first stumbled up on the first web site and also stumbled up on somebody else's website. I've just never had the money some other people have.. that's why little or no interest is taken in me...... you have to have money to start with to get any attention in certain places..... and no I don't want a lecture from anyone about my whining about the expense of collectibles.. I wasn't even referring to that at ALL. No lectures please.. I won't carry this any further...... I'm just well.. broken down basically. I've Been working my butt of all week for a piddling amount of money.... I guess we've ALL been there. People who would like to just go on and on with this or make some smart remark about drama on the board.. save your breath.. I'm not going to drag this on and on.. it's not worth it. I'm just expressing my feelings about several things in a discreet sort of way. The people who know all about it will understand and probably won't say anything... the people who don't know about it.. just don't leave any comments. I've said my peace. I know I was wrong for stirring up the pot a little.

I'm not trying to start drama here. If you want to lecture me.. you know how to e-mail me. I'm just a hurt, broken down person who has tried and tried to get things started for his life and has just had the rug jerked out from under him every single time. I have a right to gripe every now and then. You don't have to lecture me or comment back about me sticking drama on here because I'm through talking about it. You guys can go on discussing the topic now and I apologize for this.... I just had to get it off my chest.

Sorry.. I guess I'm just in a bad mood...... :b

[RockafireGuy]

I apologize for the above post guys. I just get blue sometimes.
I got completely off the subject of this whole thing.

It's just that it feels useless to do what I have done over the past 9 years by pouring my heart into being a revived Rock-afire fan that thought he was only only one who remembered them at first. Although I haven't had any money; I've poured my heart into being a devoted fan. Being a devoted fan is more than paying money for collectibles...or animatronics....
it's dedication and contributing what you can. Being a devoted fan is true heart and love for the very thing you're a fan of. I've often dreamed.. ever since I was 5-years-old of being more than just a fan... but being a creator of the very type of thing I fell in love with when I was 5-years-old and walked into Showbiz for the first time... I've had a lot of other dreams besides that..... NONE of them have formed into reality... and have yet to do so. It seems useless and worthless to waste my time any more on any of it. At least.. thats' the way I feel right now. I feel like this 9 year dedication to an obsession that I've had practically all of my life has been nothing but a big waste of 9 years. I just wonder what the point is in continuing with this particular dream. You guys have known I was dreaming of such a thing for years....a long time before a lot of you expressed an idea or two. I'm sure some of you remember. But I just feel like it's all been pointless.... 9 years completely wasted. I see other people doing something I've always dreamed of doing and well....... I do get jeaolous.. I'm only human... after all.. those are some of my own personal dreams they're living out....... how would you feel????? Jealousy is a very annoying human trait and I'll admit I've been pretty envious. Like I said.. all My dreams that I've had for years........ and somebody else is living them...... kind of makes me want to kick myself for even dreaming them.... I apologize for this guys.. I'm just REALLY blue about everything right now.. not just this... although I'm down about this also. You guys just overlook anything that offended you. I might be taking another LONG vacation from the board, like I did a few years ago. I've been around here a long time... and well... I have nothing to show personally for it... not that much anyway..... I have made a couple of good friends along the way and I'm thankful for that. I just think this has mostly been a pointless 9 years and I wonder why I ever wasted my time on it. I also wonder why I ever dreamed anything as lavish as I've dreamed. The reason for my possible next vacatino form the board is simply this.. I can't stand to watch somebody else live my dreams... it makes me want to elaborate even more as to how pointless the past 9 years have been for me. As long as I've been around and as much as I use dto e-mail even the webmasters of these websites... and I once even had my own website years ago......it wasn't that great because I had no pics or info.... nobody would help me... anyway... even with all that in mind.. I was never once asked to do any jobs on the sites or anything.. as long as I've been around... which totals to 9 years now... Newcomers were always asked. Also; I was probably the VERY first person to express interest in doing work in the particular field ( animatronics for those of you who aren't figuring it out) discussed in the beginning of this thread.... and I was met with short answers and was basically ignored for years. I'm very blue about all of this.... I'm just down in the dumps about it all.. not just things going on that I'm discussing... but more than that. I just feel like I"ve wasted 9 years. Why pour your heart into a dream that somebody else is obviously started to llive out???? I'm down in the dumps about this..... not just this.. but this is a major thing to me.... I'm pretty blue about it all.

I apologize and I am taking my leave of absense. You won't see me around here for a while.... because I just can't stand to see other people live out my life long dreams..... Bye for now.. but I'll be back someday when I feel like the time is right.

Jonathan

[yorkmiss]

My god, get a grip.

Re-read you post and pretend you are one of us.

I work at a place where we manage more than 100 different people, and from my 18 years working in my position - people that claim "I work my ass off but don't get anywhere" are NOT working their ass off to get anywhere at all.


MY husband is a high school drop out that today makes more than $100,000 a year and is very successful. Why? Because he didn't spend one SECOND of time whining about his life and how bad it is.

Do yourself a favor - seriously... But the book or audio CD, "The seven habbits of highly effective people" by Covey. Read it, listen to it, practice it and in ONE YEAR you won't be the same person.

And if by some chance you ARE the OBE person in the world that is "working you butt of and getting nowhere", then take some responsibility for your life and find a new place to work or live - because it would be stupid to keep doing the same thing over and over again knowing it's not gonig to work.

And lastly - *whew* Never, NEVER EVER gripe about someone else's success. The worlds a big place - there plenty of success for everyone. Sometimes someone being first makes it easier for you to follow.

So, get off your sad-sap soap-box and take a long look at the one person holding you back.

[pizzacam]

I just didn't join the community for a few years. I was around when Nick's site was the only site.
1997 or 1998 would be a good estimate as to when I first stumbled up on the first web site and also stumbled up on somebody else's website. I've just never had the money some other people have...

Pfft So was I and I actually just showed up at the guys freakin' house so that makes me more dedicated ok.

I don't have money either man I'm freakin paralyzed and on social security and HAVE to freakin' live with my parents so now you tell me who's worse off? jeez :rolleyes :rolleyes

Boo Hoo I don't have money to buy showbiz stuff BFD I'd give you all my Showbiz @#%$ to have a chance at a real life and ya know...WALK :rolleyes

[Rock-afireGuy]

You know.. it's taken a long time fo rthis response. I'll admit I was immature in ways.. BUT

I saw some responses here that lacked maturity greatly.

Gabe........ I appologize to you for actually being a fair person who has a few feelings unlike some people I know of.... I would never judge how much of a fan a person is by whether they show up at somebody's house or not.. how ignorant. It's how many memories you have and how dearly you hold them.

Now.. Gabe.. dude.. I never showed up at the guy's house because I never had the money to travel there. Your dissabilty and your social security problems being as they are.. I don't know how you showed up at Travis' house.. you probably did it on my tax dollars... see??? I can be mean too... but I didn't actually mean that last statement. My Uncle was a spinal cord injury patient and I am very proud of how much he improved and his accomplishments to help others. As of the current situation.. I still don't have the money to go to Cheesvention or "the guy's house". Besides... I make it a habit to try and get to know a person I meet on the Internet a little better before I go charging over to their house...

And Gabe.. If you can't be friendly with me.. or at least half way decent.. just leave me alone and don't say anything. Plus; I don't want to hear you whine about your problems any more than you want to hear me whine about mine. Your response was as bad as a ten-year-old :earl:.... Rolf would respond in a better manner :rolfe:

And Beth... You actually made some good points this time around. I commend you for that. It wasn't just a menacing cut down opinion like Gabe's this time..... it was actually a statement of maturity. By the way.. I have a 30k per year job starting next month. I start training next week!!!! Thanks Beth.. I never would have expected such a nice mature, and diplomatic response... most of the time.. you sound like Ann Coulter....LOL! NO OFFENSE... LOL! HA HA!!!!! But; this time, you sounded liek a life coach... nice:glasses:

Also; I wasn't appreciating the fact that I was constantly being ignored by Jenn who actually.... as of a couple of years ago.. talked like she would work with me if I ever decided to get projects of my own going or whatever...... WHen the latest things came up.. well..... I thought maybe she woudl at least be nice enough to fill me in... of course..... you know..
There is more.. I actually did do some work on one of the projects.. although I'll probably remain the unsung behind the scenes worker.... and wasn't offered anything better.... It is agrivating when you holler for years
that your want to get into a certain line of work to somebody who was at the top of his game.... and then after proving your talent and abilties.. he still doesn't have squat to do with you when it comes to new projects.... it can get a little nerve racking. But I talked it over with him.. I'm referring to Air of course.

So....Jenn.. I'm sorry......

[Aaron]

Before I start, let me say this. I was not heavily involved in the administration of this forum during the original 'life' of this thread, so this was an entirely new thing to me. That said, please let there be no assumption I'm taking one side over the other's.

Allow me for a second to refresh your memory of our new Code of Conduct, as introduced when the forum re-opened back in April of this year.


PART 3: Freedom of Speech

You have no freedom of speech on this message board. Period. This does not violate the 1st amendment. You are comparing apples and oranges if you think so. Let me give a quick civics lesson for those who weren't paying attention in school.



Quote: 1st Amendment - Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances. Notice that this amendment mentions the agreement that congress shall make no law prohibiting free speech. We are not the US government nor are we passing US legislation, hence we fall outside of this rule. Again, this is a privately controlled forum and censorship is in full effect. We are not unlike any other private entity, and you are essentially a guest in our house. Your 'freedom' to post on this board extends only as far as we say it does (see part 2 above).


The thing is, I try not to censor people unless they're completely out of line. I try to be fair in my practices on this forum, as does the rest of our team. A tone of respect needs to be set for everyone, and if there isn't, I have no problem putting anyone on moderated posts that I must approve myself manually.

I'm very big on second chances, I believe everyone deserves a second chance... but as part as that chance, let the past remain in the past and let's not bring something dated March 2007. If you're taking the second chance, reviving this pretty much defeats the purpose. You cannot have your cake and eat it, too. (everyone leave MatHat out of this one... lol! I know I just opened myself up there.)

I'm not going to delete this, or anyone's views. This will be closed, I'm just going to ask everyone to remember the advice I gave out in another thread:

Keep your words short and sweet, just in case you have to eat them later.